This past week has been a huge lesson in recognizing my God-given gifts and not taking them for granted. I hadn't considered myself a vain person, but God - in His ever so knowing ways - found a way to force me to pay attention to my vanity vice.
For Halloween, I wore some makeup that caused an allergic reaction. I'm not talking about a little bit of a rash, but a full-blown "what did you DO!" to your face reaction. My forehead puffed up to the extent my husband thought I was growing a horn, then my left eye swelled shut as the swelling made its way down my face. After a visit to emergency, I was reassured that my reaction wasn't life threatening. Armed with super antihistamines and dark sunglasses, I was told it would take about a week for my face to clear up. I quickly noted another injury that quickly swelled-
bruised pride.
So for the week I hid under hats, sunglasses and excuses. I laughed loud (too loud) when describing my face to others on the phone...all the while desperately trying to repress my fear that my face wouldn't be restored.
And do you know what? Even on the worst day, when my eye was so very swollen, my kids didn't even seem to notice. I was still their mommy.
This is a message God hand-wrote for me, then delivered it through swelling and was read out loud by my children:
Unconditional love only sees the lovely.
My face is now restored. I look around with fresh eyes to the loveliness that God has unconditionally granted me:
962. Lisps and laboured tongue rolls of my three-year old's speech. I want to memorize her tiny voice.
963. Son who wobbley-knee skates on a rink of scratched ice - my little bambi gaining his balance and confidence. My heart bursts with pride as he flashes me his ear-to-ear grin from behind the caged helmet.
964. My blue-green feather costumed daughter whose tiny hands, flapping arms and wiggly hips made me enjoy the chicken dance song. (A huge feat, as I had this song black-listed at my wedding!)
965. Homemade pizza dough hand-rolled by my husband. And delicious pizza toppings that folded the crust just-so into my hungry mouth. Nothing is better than homemade with love.
966. A muddy, scarred and pitted front yard that my husband restored with sweated brow.
967. Son who talks excitedly about his new best friend at school.
968.Children who point to the morning sky and excitedly say that Jesus made the colours in the sky just for us.
970. Eavesdropping as my daughter sings "I will praise you God with all my heart."
971. Candlelit bedtime choruses of 'this little light of mine' between a father and his children.
972. The sound of deep-belly laughs.
973. A full bag of garden-fresh carrots.
975. Popcorn movie nights at Nana and Papa's house.
976. An adult night out with great friends and tasty food.
977. Full-strength antihistamines that alleviated my
pride-busting (
oh, so humbled!) allergic reaction that swelled the left side of my face.
978. Mom who waited in emergency with me - even though I insisted she stay home. XOXO.
979. Family who are always there to watch and play with our little ones.
980. Phone calls of pride from Lady Wanda to our mini hockey player and darling stage dancer.
981. Uncle who made it through major surgery and is recovering well.
982. My brother who puts up with all my crazy last minute requests.
Join me in listing your thanks?